Quick update

This weeks weigh in: 145 pounds. Not bad but not good either. Staying the same is disappointing and I hope I'm not hitting a plateau but I'm pretty sure it's because I was getting a little lax in my eating habits. You know, eating just a little bit extra than I should have and not counting it towards my points. Not drinking enough water. Drinking too much coffee with my delicious hazelnut creamer. That sort of thing. So it's back on the bandwagon for moi.

I did the shred as well and it DID kick my ass but it was also pretty awesome. I'm putting it on hold for now though because I need to invest in a good sports bra and they're expensive. We'll be back on track financially in the next month but with Jeff starting his new job last week it's just been a little rocky. I do have the wii and it still gives me quite the workout so I'll be doing that again.

As for the before pic, I didn't have a full body shot from where I started in January so here is one of me sitting down at Christmas. You can still see how fat I am so it works.

How hard can it be?

Today I'm going to start the 30 Day Shred. I downloaded it yesterday and took a look at it and I'm really excited to be able to fit a good workout into a small window of time. I'm just kidding about it not being hard...it's going to kick my ass. And I can't wait!

It also occurred to me that I should post a before picture, so I'll get on that at some point today and post it with my next blog post. That's a lot of 'post' in one sentence.

And, it also occurred to me that this blog is missing some scrappy happiness, so I'll be posting my latest creations soon here too. Just for you Jess :) I'm also starting to work on some very ambitious projects for the boys for Christmas. I'll tell y'all about that later too!

3 things.

I'm having a moment. A covetous moment. I want, I want, I want.

These moments always seem to come at the precise time when you barely have enough money to cover your bills, let alone have anything left to play with.

ANYWAY. Here are the 3 things I want badly right now:

A Phil & Ted's stroller. These things are SO COOL and I'm jealous of all my friends that have one.

A DSLR. I get so frustrated with the amount of work I have to put into my camera to take a picture that at least doesn't look like crap, but still is nowhere near what it could be.

An iphone. This is actually more attainable than the other things I want, but I have to wait for it. And I'm an Instant Gratification kind of gal.

All right, I guess it's time to go and make lunch, somebody is whining in the kitchen like I've been starving him for the last 4 days.

Every girl's gotta have a goal.

One of the things I wanted to pay more attention to in the new year was this blog. It has suffered greatly! It's not as though I don't have the time since we're on a pretty good schedule here and I'm not quite as sleep deprived as I was for the first few months after Josh was born. But when I sit down at the computer I have responsibilities; I've got a couple farms that I need to harvest, and an adorable pet that I need to keep fed and clean. I swear they're more a pain in the ass to keep up than they are fun but I just can't stop. Is that what they call an addiction? Someone needs to take Facebook away from me!

Another issue I wanted to address in the new year (I refuse to call them resolutions) is my weight. It's something I never really gave any serious thought to although I sure did bitch and moan about it. I imagine this is true of many people. Slowly, so slowly, that scale crept up and up and up until I actually felt comfortable (lazy) at 160 pounds. That may be a healthy weight for somebody at least a half foot taller than me, but I'm only 5'2". I should be in the 120-130 pound range. And I haven't read those numbers on a scale in a good 8 years. Holy heck that's a long time.

After I had Liam almost 11 years ago, the weight just kind of melted off. I did a lot of walking since I didn't drive and my age probably had something to do with it. At 19 the metabolism works a hell of a lot better than it does at 30. I guess I just naively believed that the same thing would happen after Nicky was born. Except it didn't. And then I got pregnant again. So now instead of waiting for a miracle I'm taking matters into my own hands.

I joined Weight Watchers on January 4 and I started out at 160 pounds. What a huge reality check. I vaguely knew I wasn't eating healthy but I loved snacking more than I cared about that so I didn't examine my eating habits too closely. It has taken quite a while to get used to not being able to eat chips or cheese toast or nutella straight from the jar. In fact, I can't even keep those kinds of things in the house because I just don't trust my willpower. I have caved a few times and cheated, so I know it's in me lol.

But there has been success! In 6 weeks I have managed to lose 15 pounds, putting me at 145 pounds as of yesterday. I do my weigh in every Monday and so far I've lost at least 1 pound but more often between 2 and 3 per week. I'm fitting in clothes I haven't been able to wear in years. It's so encouraging and if I didn't have this kind of visual success I would probably be tempted to throw in throw in the towel. Ultimately my goal is to reach 125 pounds by July 4. 35 pounds in 6 months. I'm almost halfway there!

So to those of you that are reading I have a request. Leave a comment so that I can see who I'm being accountable to. It helps me to know that other people are rooting for me and the more people who know about this, the more likely I'll be to not want to disappoint anyone. So I'm recruiting you to be my personal cheerleader :)

My kids are so damn cute.

Even Liam is cute. Sure, he's a cranky pre-teen most of the time but when you catch him unawares and he's just being himself I am reminded of that sweet little boy he used to be.





Nicholas is dramatic. When he's happy, he's really really happy. But when he's mad...




And Joshua is just about the cutest little thing with his dimples. He's growing so quickly that I can barely even stand it.





I'm the luckiest mom in the world and most days I know it! I may not be sure I'm doing things right most of the time but they're happy so I'm probably not far off the mark :)

Thinking

C-sections used to be an issue that didn't affect me personally. And I suppose they still don't, but having come so close to one I find myself getting angry on behalf of people who have them. Even if those people, women, aren't angry themselves. I just think in most cases they are so absolutely unneccesary...and yet I experienced firsthand how in the heat of labor a woman can be coerced into thinking she or her baby is going to die without one. DIE. Of course you're going to say yes.

Despite my anger on behalf of others, and general disgust at the way woman are manipulated into accepting these procedures, all I do is silently stew over it. Just a random thought for the day.

I inadvertantly...

...did a scrap page that works for a mission create challenge! I had already planned on using most of the prompts, and added in the strip journaling. Even though I didn't "have to". And even though I almost never journal on my pages. It was nice to be able to use pink on a boys page, it was subtle enough, I think, to work :)